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Living in the Present

More and more each day I am reminded that tomorrow is not promised and life changes very quickly. Each day I am striving to do what I can to enjoy each moment.

Another year, more lessons

As I approach another anniversary of my birth I realize it's time for yet another retrospective analysis of my life. Well I am at my happy place so I am refusing to acknowledge it (my birthday  & a need for reflection) and acting like its just any other day. The best part of this birthday has to be the fact that my 2 besties are coming to visit. Going to continue to enjoy my visit and not worry about the birthday until the next post...laters

Wedded Bliss?

One of my friends got married this pass weekend and boy was it a party. Though I had a fantastic time I wonder how much better it could have been of there wasn't tension with other people.  At times I felt like I had to be on guard because I was being judged. Though other peoples thoughts of me generally don't bother me when they affect how people I consider to be friends it does. It calls into question my friendships and that saddens me. In a time to be focused on love and happiness, I felt trapped in despair and judgment. Adulting is so hard and relationships are too. Until next post.... laters

Sleep evades me

Thinking of all the things I want to say knowing that I can only say them in my dreams. 

Nerdigras 2016

With another Labor Day Weekend come to pass with it also is Dragon Con. This year I was very ambitious with my cosplays and successfully pulled off 4 over the course of 3 days. To say I am proud would be an understatement. For those of you curious they were Amanda Waller (Sucide Squad), The Riddler  (Playboy Bunny Style), Barf with Jesse as Lonestar  (Spaceballs) and Rogue (90s Animated Series). This may have been my last DragonCon for a while so I wanted to full advantage. Having Jesse by my side and running into tons of friends was just the icing on the cake to a fun weekend. Though September is full of all sorts of things this month already has a lot to live up to...until next post.... laters

Remember to Slow down

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind for me. We finally opened the new CG to the public after numerous setbacks and though some of those issues remain unresolved 😑, it's so good to share the space with so many excited people. Recently took a big step in my romantic world too...went on family vacation with J. We have had our issues, some of which remain unresolved but every day with him in my life is fantastic. He has become this super supportive, reassuring, open hearted person who makes me laugh, let's me cry and is always willing to try. If for some reason we become no longer romatically involved I hope he will still remain in my life because I have come to depend on his hand on the small of my back, helping to thrust me forward and there to catch me when I fall. Along with the joys of work comes new opportunities and growth. Currently I am sitting in my hotel room at a conference in SC after enjoying 3 days of interchanging ideas that are to inspire the next ...

Life

Sometimes  people grow out of you like a toy they had as a child.  And that's okay. If you say it over and over again...one day it may ring true.

Again

Yesterday news broke about a shooting at a nightclub in Orlando that resulted in 50 people dead. It broke my heart. Orlando and the surrounding areas are like another home to me. I spend so much time there and to have it violated much in the same respect of Virginia Tech has hurt me to the core. I keep fluctuating between depression, anger and hope. The world we live in needs change. If nothing else comes from this senseless crime I hope governmental regulations do. However there is that little voice in my head that says....remember Sandy Hook. If the laws didn't change when 5 and 6 year old children died at the hands of a gunman will they change for gay party goers? I'm ashamed of the answer. Until next post...

Still here

Some days are still harder than others. Some days are awesome, others not even close. This past weekend I was able to spend some time with friends I haven't seen in a while and it reminded of these very things. It can be hard to see the eroding of a relationship by outside forces and be powerless to fix it. Nonetheless it's those great days that make the crap ones that much more tolerable. Every tunnel has an end. Until next post.... laters

Powering Through

This has been one of the busiest and most tiring Springs I have had in a long time. My normal 8 hour days have turned into 9 to 12 hour days and throw in a few curve balls like moving, a major family vacation and a job change to boot! I come home to a sweet dog who curls up next to me and keeps me company as I try to make the move from the couch to the bed. Yesterday I legit dozed off in the shower. With a beer in my hand. Let's just say it's a good thing I was already washing my hair or I may have hit my head on the wall.  All in all we are almost done. Home stretch. Soon I'll be at one of my favorite places with people I love and all this will be behind me. Until next post.... laters

More things to Love

Valentine's Day has long been a treasured holiday in my mind. I see a world so full of anger and hate on a daily basis that I heavily and unabashedly bby into the idea that for one day we can celebrate love. With this day now just a remnant in the minds of most I sit here and think of more things that embodies love. I love my family for all of their faults, like how my mother's idea of finding me a husband includes a trip to Jamaica i.e. "How Stella Got Her Groove Back" or how my nephew starts high school this year and isn't worried in the least because he already has a strong sense of self (shout out to his parents for that). I love my beau who is passionate and confident in the things that make him happy especially composing and playing music. I love my friends who take the time to sit on the couch with me and watch horribly stupid people do mindless things for a few hours so that we can decompress. I also love the friends who leap into new challenges with a mi...

Let's Do This

So it's a new year, time for resolutions that I have a hard time accomplishing right? Wrong. Much like last year I am taking a slightly different route to making sustainable changes. I'll write them again for tracking that seemed to help immensely last time. So here we go: Finish grad school applications Start grad school Maintain healthy hair Diversify working out (circus arts, roller blading, biking etc) Find a new loveable apartment More work/life balance More mini vacations with people I love Visit family more Hoping and working towards the best 2016 and life I can. Until next post laters