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Queer "Patriarchy"

Sometimes, being a queer woman with a lot of gay male friends is hard. It feels like when typing this, I'm like "woe is me," and I don't want to come off like that. It's more like even in queerdom (which took a while to even realize) the patriarchy reigns supreme. I've had a delightful day of adventures and working, but with another day off, I'm not quite ready to go home.  So, what do I do? I head to a gay bar ..a male dominant one. I live in a place with one of the few truly lesbian/queer women friendly bar left in the US and yet instead of being a patron there, I went to the gay bar. Yes, it is closer to home, but from where I am coming from...does it really matter geographically? If I'm honest...no not really. Why is it that even when the opportunity presents itself for me to make the full-fledged decision to be in my fullness, I still shy away? I still default to the "norm"? I still deny myself?  There's a small part of me who ackno...

Again!?!?!

So it's the 3rd day of May and two things happened.  I remembered that I didn't post anything in April and I'm sitting at my desk on lockdown because of an active shooter. Another day living in America. Coworkers are wondering how I'm staying calm and continuing to work...because this is America.  And this is becoming a very common occurrence.  I've generally become somewhat desensitized to it now.