To err is to be human

When you do something under the influence of drugs or alcohol, is it as they say your true nature presenting itself? I recently read the Hunger Games prequel "The Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes" and one of the main characters is presented with the idea that at our most base level humans are animals with no sense of care just carnal behaviors. So, when we aren't mentally in a state to self correct; adjust; etc is that person we'd truly be? I had a bit of a blackout incident 😕 and though I have heard nothing negative per se I keep having hazy flashbacks of me crying uncontrollably, calling myself and others selfish and perhaps more hateful things. Do I deep down have self loathing? Am I really a terrible person? Am I projecting self confidence when in actually, I am waiting for the day it all falls apart & I can rest? 


Until next post....laters

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