Emotionally Exhausted

Food is so personal and the US is full of times when poor, minority and othered people suffered. Today was one of those days that just drained me emotionally. I know who I am, my interests and intentions. Having that called into question is frustrating and has brought me to tears. Tomorrow will be a better day but I needed to write out how today felt. Future me will need to see this. Until next post....laters

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