Waiting for the Other Shoe to Drop

You ever get the feeling that you are being warned inadvertenly? I think my nightmares are trying to do just that. Ever since I've been back from Memphis I haven't been sleeping well. I either sleep right through the night and wake up tired or when I do sleep I wake with a different version of the same nightmare. This lastest nightmare has me with my parents driving home at night from somewhere. I convince them to stop at a Little Caesar's for food. Even though we get our food I go back inside for something else. And that's when all hell breaks loose. First there is some sort of small laughable disagreement between the clerk and some old lady then next thing you know there's gunshots outside. For whatever reason the doors automatically lock , we can't get out but they can't get in either. They still try even going as far as shooting at the doors and windows. But they're bulletproof. As we hunch down in the store I grab some random little boy and cradle him all the while listening to screaming and shooting outside. In the end we hear a vehicle pull up, see that it is a truck and see a gunman at the door. The truck flashes its lights twice, the gunman steps aside smiling and starts counting down. Once he gets to 0 I usually wake up in a cold sweat. Always the same dream with a few differences, sometimes I'm outside and my parents are in, or I clutch a little girl or I'm at the bank not a resturant. I know its a dark thing to put on my blog but maybe if I talk about it whatever the trigger is will come to light also. I shiver a little to use the word "trigger". Right now I feel as though everything in my life is going well for me...so where is this gunman coming from trying to kill my happiness?