A Day in the Life of a Master(s) of Education

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!! You can say it is just a commercial holiday, but who cares!! It is just another day for us celebrate one of God's greatest gifts...to love and be loved in return

Stole this quote from a TV show I watch. It's been playing a bigger role in my mentality lately. Life has been a bigger and bigger Rollercoaster of late and these words have helped to ground me mentally. In a world full of uncertainty I have found comfort in such a simple phrase. Until next post laters

Today I am hurt. I am sadden by the view people have of me. I am really this person? How do I change it? Should I?  So many doubts, I don't know how to deal. In my mind I was to buckle down and address the issues at hand...in reality I just want to walk away. Fight or Flight? Sink or Swim? I need time to figure it out but it's the most limiting factor of all. Ugh. Until next post laters

Recently saw the latest Disney movie "Moana" and as can be expected...I love it.   The music of course is one of my favorite parts and so I received the soundtrack from J as a gift. Thankfully soundtracks generally have the lyrics to songs. I'm going to share some of my favorites now so that I can reflect on them later: "You are your father's daughter Stubbornness and pride Mind what he says, but remember You may hear a voice inside And if the voice starts to whisper To follow the farthest star Moana that voice inside is who you are" -Where You Are Another great one is... "Sometimes the world seems against you The journey may leave a scar But scars can heal and reveal just Where you are The people you love will change you The things you have learned will guide you And nothing on earth can silence The quiet voice still inside you" -I Am Moana I am always amazed how well songwriters can capture feelings through musical arrangements...

What happens next...what remains to be seen of course.  Time to make a stand. And say goodbye to those bygone days of nothingness

Every day is another opportunity to be the best version of yourself. Today my best version consists of sleeping in, finishing a book that I've had on my list for months and getting excited to play board games with one of my favorite people. You only get what you put in or something like that....until next post... laters

Day 3 of 2017 and I've already failed at keeping the resolutions

Here we go down a new yet familiar road. Here we are thinking of the future and reflecting on the past. It's that time again and I greet it with a cautioned optimism. Hello 2017. I'm ready come what may....until next post laters

More and more each day I am reminded that tomorrow is not promised and life changes very quickly. Each day I am striving to do what I can to enjoy each moment.

As I approach another anniversary of my birth I realize it's time for yet another retrospective analysis of my life. Well I am at my happy place so I am refusing to acknowledge it (my birthday  & a need for reflection) and acting like its just any other day. The best part of this birthday has to be the fact that my 2 besties are coming to visit. Going to continue to enjoy my visit and not worry about the birthday until the next post...laters

One of my friends got married this pass weekend and boy was it a party. Though I had a fantastic time I wonder how much better it could have been of there wasn't tension with other people.  At times I felt like I had to be on guard because I was being judged. Though other peoples thoughts of me generally don't bother me when they affect how people I consider to be friends it does. It calls into question my friendships and that saddens me. In a time to be focused on love and happiness, I felt trapped in despair and judgment. Adulting is so hard and relationships are too. Until next post.... laters

Thinking of all the things I want to say knowing that I can only say them in my dreams. 

With another Labor Day Weekend come to pass with it also is Dragon Con. This year I was very ambitious with my cosplays and successfully pulled off 4 over the course of 3 days. To say I am proud would be an understatement. For those of you curious they were Amanda Waller (Sucide Squad), The Riddler  (Playboy Bunny Style), Barf with Jesse as Lonestar  (Spaceballs) and Rogue (90s Animated Series). This may have been my last DragonCon for a while so I wanted to full advantage. Having Jesse by my side and running into tons of friends was just the icing on the cake to a fun weekend. Though September is full of all sorts of things this month already has a lot to live up to...until next post.... laters

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind for me. We finally opened the new CG to the public after numerous setbacks and though some of those issues remain unresolved 😑, it's so good to share the space with so many excited people. Recently took a big step in my romantic world too...went on family vacation with J. We have had our issues, some of which remain unresolved but every day with him in my life is fantastic. He has become this super supportive, reassuring, open hearted person who makes me laugh, let's me cry and is always willing to try. If for some reason we become no longer romatically involved I hope he will still remain in my life because I have come to depend on his hand on the small of my back, helping to thrust me forward and there to catch me when I fall. Along with the joys of work comes new opportunities and growth. Currently I am sitting in my hotel room at a conference in SC after enjoying 3 days of interchanging ideas that are to inspire the next ...

Sometimes  people grow out of you like a toy they had as a child.  And that's okay. If you say it over and over again...one day it may ring true.

Yesterday news broke about a shooting at a nightclub in Orlando that resulted in 50 people dead. It broke my heart. Orlando and the surrounding areas are like another home to me. I spend so much time there and to have it violated much in the same respect of Virginia Tech has hurt me to the core. I keep fluctuating between depression, anger and hope. The world we live in needs change. If nothing else comes from this senseless crime I hope governmental regulations do. However there is that little voice in my head that says....remember Sandy Hook. If the laws didn't change when 5 and 6 year old children died at the hands of a gunman will they change for gay party goers? I'm ashamed of the answer. Until next post...

Some days are still harder than others. Some days are awesome, others not even close. This past weekend I was able to spend some time with friends I haven't seen in a while and it reminded of these very things. It can be hard to see the eroding of a relationship by outside forces and be powerless to fix it. Nonetheless it's those great days that make the crap ones that much more tolerable. Every tunnel has an end. Until next post.... laters

This has been one of the busiest and most tiring Springs I have had in a long time. My normal 8 hour days have turned into 9 to 12 hour days and throw in a few curve balls like moving, a major family vacation and a job change to boot! I come home to a sweet dog who curls up next to me and keeps me company as I try to make the move from the couch to the bed. Yesterday I legit dozed off in the shower. With a beer in my hand. Let's just say it's a good thing I was already washing my hair or I may have hit my head on the wall.  All in all we are almost done. Home stretch. Soon I'll be at one of my favorite places with people I love and all this will be behind me. Until next post.... laters

Valentine's Day has long been a treasured holiday in my mind. I see a world so full of anger and hate on a daily basis that I heavily and unabashedly bby into the idea that for one day we can celebrate love. With this day now just a remnant in the minds of most I sit here and think of more things that embodies love. I love my family for all of their faults, like how my mother's idea of finding me a husband includes a trip to Jamaica i.e. "How Stella Got Her Groove Back" or how my nephew starts high school this year and isn't worried in the least because he already has a strong sense of self (shout out to his parents for that). I love my beau who is passionate and confident in the things that make him happy especially composing and playing music. I love my friends who take the time to sit on the couch with me and watch horribly stupid people do mindless things for a few hours so that we can decompress. I also love the friends who leap into new challenges with a mi...

So it's a new year, time for resolutions that I have a hard time accomplishing right? Wrong. Much like last year I am taking a slightly different route to making sustainable changes. I'll write them again for tracking that seemed to help immensely last time. So here we go: Finish grad school applications Start grad school Maintain healthy hair Diversify working out (circus arts, roller blading, biking etc) Find a new loveable apartment More work/life balance More mini vacations with people I love Visit family more Hoping and working towards the best 2016 and life I can. Until next post laters