A Day in the Life of a Master(s) of Education

Sometimes you remember how things really are and not what you want them to be. At times that makes a wave of overwhelming sadness happen. At times it only last a few moments,  sometimes longer. Sometimes you just want it to be over. Sometimes.

Spent the weekend hanging with my family. Took my brother & nephew to their first con...and it was a blast. Even got to see Will Wheaton & John Barrowman! As per usual David Tennant elluded me. Sunday was all about hanging with the parental units,  even took them to see a movie (which has become our thing) and had popcorn and an icee like the good ole days. Tomorrow will be a day of friends who've become family and then back to by babes. Overall it's been a great trip. Until next post......laters

LJ had a tragic accident on Monday May 8th. My road dog and the best cuddler I've ever known is no longer with me but I will always love him. The adventures we took together and times we had will help sustain me in this time. Though the crying is uncontrollable, one day it will not be as frequent. Missing you Lord Jaymeson!!

10 years ago today on a bright Monday morning while sitting in my 8am 150 person lecture, my professor commented on how empty it was. One student mentioned that West AJ was on lockdown because someone fell out of their bed. We chuckled. We continued class. While walking next to the Drillfield to my 9am Chem lab, several police cars drove by. I immediately called my father and told him I was ok but something very wrong was happening on campus. I could have never imagined how wrong it was. Today & everyday I remember those I knew personally and those who were just a part of my Hokie family that I never met. I will continue to prevail.  Always and forever I am a #Hokie #NeverForget #Livefor32

I'm a planner. I haven't always been though.  When I started college I wanted to do EVERYTHING and quickly found out that I could not actually wake up at 5am, be at Crew practice until 7am, in class until 4pm, work until 8pm, eat, sleep, develop a social life and have passing grades. At least not without some careful planning.  So I adapted and became a planner. I believe that everyone is an individual and we go about things in our own unique way...that's fine until you show a blatant disrespect of my PLANNING. Everyone doesn't live and die by their planners  (digital calendar app lol) but I do and so when I plan something with you and you can't make it or haven't made it clear from the beginning that you need some flexibility in time...and don't say anything about it? Hell hath no fury like a planner scorned. I will curse you. I will cut you off. I will find a way to punish you. And I will plan it out. Respect my time, it's limited and precious.

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!! You can say it is just a commercial holiday, but who cares!! It is just another day for us celebrate one of God's greatest gifts...to love and be loved in return

Stole this quote from a TV show I watch. It's been playing a bigger role in my mentality lately. Life has been a bigger and bigger Rollercoaster of late and these words have helped to ground me mentally. In a world full of uncertainty I have found comfort in such a simple phrase. Until next post laters

Today I am hurt. I am sadden by the view people have of me. I am really this person? How do I change it? Should I?  So many doubts, I don't know how to deal. In my mind I was to buckle down and address the issues at hand...in reality I just want to walk away. Fight or Flight? Sink or Swim? I need time to figure it out but it's the most limiting factor of all. Ugh. Until next post laters

Recently saw the latest Disney movie "Moana" and as can be expected...I love it.   The music of course is one of my favorite parts and so I received the soundtrack from J as a gift. Thankfully soundtracks generally have the lyrics to songs. I'm going to share some of my favorites now so that I can reflect on them later: "You are your father's daughter Stubbornness and pride Mind what he says, but remember You may hear a voice inside And if the voice starts to whisper To follow the farthest star Moana that voice inside is who you are" -Where You Are Another great one is... "Sometimes the world seems against you The journey may leave a scar But scars can heal and reveal just Where you are The people you love will change you The things you have learned will guide you And nothing on earth can silence The quiet voice still inside you" -I Am Moana I am always amazed how well songwriters can capture feelings through musical arrangements...

What happens next...what remains to be seen of course.  Time to make a stand. And say goodbye to those bygone days of nothingness

Every day is another opportunity to be the best version of yourself. Today my best version consists of sleeping in, finishing a book that I've had on my list for months and getting excited to play board games with one of my favorite people. You only get what you put in or something like that....until next post... laters

Day 3 of 2017 and I've already failed at keeping the resolutions

Here we go down a new yet familiar road. Here we are thinking of the future and reflecting on the past. It's that time again and I greet it with a cautioned optimism. Hello 2017. I'm ready come what may....until next post laters

More and more each day I am reminded that tomorrow is not promised and life changes very quickly. Each day I am striving to do what I can to enjoy each moment.

As I approach another anniversary of my birth I realize it's time for yet another retrospective analysis of my life. Well I am at my happy place so I am refusing to acknowledge it (my birthday  & a need for reflection) and acting like its just any other day. The best part of this birthday has to be the fact that my 2 besties are coming to visit. Going to continue to enjoy my visit and not worry about the birthday until the next post...laters

One of my friends got married this pass weekend and boy was it a party. Though I had a fantastic time I wonder how much better it could have been of there wasn't tension with other people.  At times I felt like I had to be on guard because I was being judged. Though other peoples thoughts of me generally don't bother me when they affect how people I consider to be friends it does. It calls into question my friendships and that saddens me. In a time to be focused on love and happiness, I felt trapped in despair and judgment. Adulting is so hard and relationships are too. Until next post.... laters

Thinking of all the things I want to say knowing that I can only say them in my dreams. 

With another Labor Day Weekend come to pass with it also is Dragon Con. This year I was very ambitious with my cosplays and successfully pulled off 4 over the course of 3 days. To say I am proud would be an understatement. For those of you curious they were Amanda Waller (Sucide Squad), The Riddler  (Playboy Bunny Style), Barf with Jesse as Lonestar  (Spaceballs) and Rogue (90s Animated Series). This may have been my last DragonCon for a while so I wanted to full advantage. Having Jesse by my side and running into tons of friends was just the icing on the cake to a fun weekend. Though September is full of all sorts of things this month already has a lot to live up to...until next post.... laters

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind for me. We finally opened the new CG to the public after numerous setbacks and though some of those issues remain unresolved 😑, it's so good to share the space with so many excited people. Recently took a big step in my romantic world too...went on family vacation with J. We have had our issues, some of which remain unresolved but every day with him in my life is fantastic. He has become this super supportive, reassuring, open hearted person who makes me laugh, let's me cry and is always willing to try. If for some reason we become no longer romatically involved I hope he will still remain in my life because I have come to depend on his hand on the small of my back, helping to thrust me forward and there to catch me when I fall. Along with the joys of work comes new opportunities and growth. Currently I am sitting in my hotel room at a conference in SC after enjoying 3 days of interchanging ideas that are to inspire the next ...

Sometimes  people grow out of you like a toy they had as a child.  And that's okay. If you say it over and over again...one day it may ring true.