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Reflections

So now that you are all caught up on what has been happening in the last 2.5 years behind the scenes time to catch up on the last 72hrs. I got on a plane from Atlanta with a direct flight to London Heathrow. This came after spending the afternoon with the boy and watching his band play in one of the biggest shows they have ever had. It served as a good last memory. The flight was relatively unmemorable, food was okay and I only got air sickness once (though the mix of alcohol, turkey leg, corn dog & chicken with a spicy red sauce may have been the true culprit). After landing, quickly retrieving my bags (only packed 2, very proud of that) and making it through customs without a hitch I caught my bus to Leicester City. One 2 hour bus ride and 10 minute taxi ride later and I checked into my dorm. Since I am an international grad student they have to offer me campus housing. I didn't get my first preference which would have been a full apartment but I did receive my second. I ...

Ello Love

Well ello out there blogger world! Is there anyone out there? Alas time for an update as there have been many changes on my front. There has been so many that bullet points seem the best, so here we go: made the decision to go to grad school started looking for a program that interested me decided that Education was it decided did not want to teach in a classroom found a program that fit possible career goals applied for that program  didn't get in went back to the drawing board found out about programs in the UK applied for programs got it (happy dance) got new title & role at job (happy dance) enjoying new position at work gnawing feeling about grad school defer grad school gnawing feeling grows talk to boy about school make the decision to go to grad school accept position at grad school quit job (cry a lot) leave family & friends stateside (cry more) start school in UK (cry again) All caught up? I barely am so if you aren't that...

Sometimes

Sometimes you remember how things really are and not what you want them to be. At times that makes a wave of overwhelming sadness happen. At times it only last a few moments,  sometimes longer. Sometimes you just want it to be over. Sometimes.

Good times

Spent the weekend hanging with my family. Took my brother & nephew to their first con...and it was a blast. Even got to see Will Wheaton & John Barrowman! As per usual David Tennant elluded me. Sunday was all about hanging with the parental units,  even took them to see a movie (which has become our thing) and had popcorn and an icee like the good ole days. Tomorrow will be a day of friends who've become family and then back to by babes. Overall it's been a great trip. Until next post......laters

Missing You

LJ had a tragic accident on Monday May 8th. My road dog and the best cuddler I've ever known is no longer with me but I will always love him. The adventures we took together and times we had will help sustain me in this time. Though the crying is uncontrollable, one day it will not be as frequent. Missing you Lord Jaymeson!!

It's been years and it still feels so raw...

10 years ago today on a bright Monday morning while sitting in my 8am 150 person lecture, my professor commented on how empty it was. One student mentioned that West AJ was on lockdown because someone fell out of their bed. We chuckled. We continued class. While walking next to the Drillfield to my 9am Chem lab, several police cars drove by. I immediately called my father and told him I was ok but something very wrong was happening on campus. I could have never imagined how wrong it was. Today & everyday I remember those I knew personally and those who were just a part of my Hokie family that I never met. I will continue to prevail.  Always and forever I am a #Hokie #NeverForget #Livefor32

And all at once....

I'm a planner. I haven't always been though.  When I started college I wanted to do EVERYTHING and quickly found out that I could not actually wake up at 5am, be at Crew practice until 7am, in class until 4pm, work until 8pm, eat, sleep, develop a social life and have passing grades. At least not without some careful planning.  So I adapted and became a planner. I believe that everyone is an individual and we go about things in our own unique way...that's fine until you show a blatant disrespect of my PLANNING. Everyone doesn't live and die by their planners  (digital calendar app lol) but I do and so when I plan something with you and you can't make it or haven't made it clear from the beginning that you need some flexibility in time...and don't say anything about it? Hell hath no fury like a planner scorned. I will curse you. I will cut you off. I will find a way to punish you. And I will plan it out. Respect my time, it's limited and precious.

It's the most wonderful time of year!

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!! You can say it is just a commercial holiday, but who cares!! It is just another day for us celebrate one of God's greatest gifts...to love and be loved in return

Always Forward, Forward Always

Stole this quote from a TV show I watch. It's been playing a bigger role in my mentality lately. Life has been a bigger and bigger Rollercoaster of late and these words have helped to ground me mentally. In a world full of uncertainty I have found comfort in such a simple phrase. Until next post laters

What to do.....

Today I am hurt. I am sadden by the view people have of me. I am really this person? How do I change it? Should I?  So many doubts, I don't know how to deal. In my mind I was to buckle down and address the issues at hand...in reality I just want to walk away. Fight or Flight? Sink or Swim? I need time to figure it out but it's the most limiting factor of all. Ugh. Until next post laters

Disney Wisdom

Recently saw the latest Disney movie "Moana" and as can be expected...I love it.   The music of course is one of my favorite parts and so I received the soundtrack from J as a gift. Thankfully soundtracks generally have the lyrics to songs. I'm going to share some of my favorites now so that I can reflect on them later: "You are your father's daughter Stubbornness and pride Mind what he says, but remember You may hear a voice inside And if the voice starts to whisper To follow the farthest star Moana that voice inside is who you are" -Where You Are Another great one is... "Sometimes the world seems against you The journey may leave a scar But scars can heal and reveal just Where you are The people you love will change you The things you have learned will guide you And nothing on earth can silence The quiet voice still inside you" -I Am Moana I am always amazed how well songwriters can capture feelings through musical arrangements...

Musings

What happens next...what remains to be seen of course.  Time to make a stand. And say goodbye to those bygone days of nothingness

Another shot at greatness

Every day is another opportunity to be the best version of yourself. Today my best version consists of sleeping in, finishing a book that I've had on my list for months and getting excited to play board games with one of my favorite people. You only get what you put in or something like that....until next post... laters

Already failing

Day 3 of 2017 and I've already failed at keeping the resolutions

And so it beings

Here we go down a new yet familiar road. Here we are thinking of the future and reflecting on the past. It's that time again and I greet it with a cautioned optimism. Hello 2017. I'm ready come what may....until next post laters

Living in the Present

More and more each day I am reminded that tomorrow is not promised and life changes very quickly. Each day I am striving to do what I can to enjoy each moment.

Another year, more lessons

As I approach another anniversary of my birth I realize it's time for yet another retrospective analysis of my life. Well I am at my happy place so I am refusing to acknowledge it (my birthday  & a need for reflection) and acting like its just any other day. The best part of this birthday has to be the fact that my 2 besties are coming to visit. Going to continue to enjoy my visit and not worry about the birthday until the next post...laters

Wedded Bliss?

One of my friends got married this pass weekend and boy was it a party. Though I had a fantastic time I wonder how much better it could have been of there wasn't tension with other people.  At times I felt like I had to be on guard because I was being judged. Though other peoples thoughts of me generally don't bother me when they affect how people I consider to be friends it does. It calls into question my friendships and that saddens me. In a time to be focused on love and happiness, I felt trapped in despair and judgment. Adulting is so hard and relationships are too. Until next post.... laters

Sleep evades me

Thinking of all the things I want to say knowing that I can only say them in my dreams. 

Nerdigras 2016

With another Labor Day Weekend come to pass with it also is Dragon Con. This year I was very ambitious with my cosplays and successfully pulled off 4 over the course of 3 days. To say I am proud would be an understatement. For those of you curious they were Amanda Waller (Sucide Squad), The Riddler  (Playboy Bunny Style), Barf with Jesse as Lonestar  (Spaceballs) and Rogue (90s Animated Series). This may have been my last DragonCon for a while so I wanted to full advantage. Having Jesse by my side and running into tons of friends was just the icing on the cake to a fun weekend. Though September is full of all sorts of things this month already has a lot to live up to...until next post.... laters