Exhausted

Even when you know the source and cause some times the emotional exhaustion just wins. No matter what you try to do to combat it...it's just a lot to keep going.  The world feels dangerous and uncertain and scary and sad and I am trying to not succumb to the weight but dang is it hard. 

Saying it out loud helps. Until next post.....laters

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